appear inside.
It’s so odd how we found ourselves being comfortable in a state of unconsciousness. In this false identity of ones self. I find myself remaining in this constant state of fear because it’s all i’ve known for quite some time. When I look at it, I have absolutely nothing to worry about which shocks me so I create the worst state and fake situations for myself. I hit my fed up point.I know what I deserve and who I am. I finally feel like who I always knew I was going to be and I’m worrying it away, but not any longer. I’ve come in touch with my conscious mind and am starting to work on getting myself back to me. It’s not going to happen over night but it’s going to happen. Also why is it that i am so fucking happy with someone i freak out and divert all my happiness into fears. That’s kind of sick, no wait it is. That’s stopping too!! Life is ebb and flow, they both need to be embraced for what they are, when good is good it should be welcomed with open arms. I’m welcoming it. The world is to beautiful to contaminate my inner space with, it’s not fair to me or anyone around me. It’s okay for me, Courtney to be happy.
